The Poetry and Short Stories of
Anthony Watkins

The Writing Forum’s Writer of the Month - January 2004
The Writing Forum’s Writer of the Month - February 2011

 

AUTHOR’S BIO:

I have been at various times, and still am for the most part, the following: poet, construction worker, used bookstore owner, truck driver, local and over the road custom budder of pecan trees, pig farmer, salesman of house plants, cars, home remodeling services, Pepsi products and advertising publisher and, editor of a literary quarterly Abundance - A Harvest of Life, Literature & Art.

Born in Jackson, Mississippi in 1959, I have lived nearly half of my life in Alabama and the other half in Florida. I grew up deeply religious, conservative and am now an agnostic liberal active Democrat.

Also my Blog “Night Heron Poets”, where you can also participate, may be accessed by clicking here.

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Email: uplandpoet@comcast.net
 

POETRY BY ANTHONY WATKINS
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  Cold Tile
  Still
  There is a Summer Heat
  I Want a Coffee
  The Dog We Got for a Broken Arm
  Dying a Little Every Day
  The Mist of a Horse Track
  Rusted Iron and Steel
  Elm Street, Hattiesburg, Mississippi
  A Moment of Auburn Hair
  Celery in Everything
  On Certain Winter Mornings
  Turning Fields
  Daylight Moon
  The One I've Done
  Between Six and Seven
  Sing For Me Another Round
  Back Door
  Full Moon Over Texas
  The Ways of Money
  Three Days Worth of Groceries
  The End of Expectations
  On Passing into that Good Night
  Very First One
  There Stands a Post in My Backyard
  Today the Paint is Fresh
  I Would Not Be Graveyard Dirt
  The Seven Pound Cup of Coffee
  After the Door Had Opened
  How to See Alabama
  Glamour of Poverty
  No Seepage
  The Water Carvers
  The Sweat of Horses
  What to Do When God is Gone
  A SMALL GOD
  A MOTHER'S DREAM
  Soft Shoe
  French Poodle Women
 

Cold Tile

Cold fifty year old tile
On the bottom of my bare feet
Soft winter morning light
Drifting in through a west facing window
Like mourners drifting into a bar
After a wake.

The slight smell of my wife's perfume
Opium that I gave her for Christmas
Then out to the hardwood floor
Of the bedroom, just as old
And into the soft kingsize bed
Not too old and with fresh linens

I realize as I look at the forest green walls
And sink beneath the covers
That for all the hard times
And there have been plenty
With maybe more yet to come
I am comfortable
And comfortably middle class

And with that, I think of those who aren't
And snuggle a little deeper.

 

Still

Pull the thick fluffy silky cover up
And slide deep down
Like a corpse slipping off of a rock
Into the cool green pool of sleep
That is Sunday afternoon.

Though I love to stand thigh deep
In the sun splashed rushing water of life
By Sunday afternoon
I look for a quite still eddy
And fall like a stone

Silently bouncing off submerged walls
Into the dreams of life.

 

There is a Summer Heat

This is a part of summer
Where the heat is not your enemy
Where it is there, and if you try to work
You will feel it quick

But for walking a dog
Or standing in the shade
It warms your bones
And promises trips to the pool

Summer, still gentle and green
Without the agression of August
A day warm enough
For ice cream or lemonade

More as a pleasure
Than a relief
This is summer of dreams
Of barefoot school boys

Looking out the open windows
Of unairconditioned classrooms
And slow moving ceiling fans
And dirty oiled wood floors

There is a summer heat
Filled with longing, not dread.

© 4/18/11

 

I Want a Coffee

If you are sophisticated,
You might say you want a coffee
With a taste of chocolate, or a full fruity flavor
Maybe a hint of oak, or a nutty bite.

If you tastes run simpler
You might ask for it fresh
With a little half and half
Or a spoon full of sugar.

But I want a coffee
That tastes of wood fires
In a mountain cabin
Of a winter morning's frosty balconies

I want the coffee of hot tropical nights
And revolution steaming away
From the heavy mugs on wooden tables
In the outdoor island cafes

For the coffee that takes me
To New Orleans day and night
Before and after the flood
With graveyards and trolleys

With that overwhelming feeling
That grows in my heart
When I think of those I love
Parents, children, and friends

I want that love in my mouth
Overflowing with comfort
While longing to be near them
This is the coffee I would drink

For this coffee I would would walk
The narrow mountain paths
Leading a burro laden down
With burlap bags of beans.

I want a coffee that is
Only all of these things.

© 4/14/11

 

The Dog We Got for a Broken Arm

The dog we got for a broken arm
Or more exactly for our son
As a comfort for the summer
He spent in a cast due to incompentence

And hypocrisy that means
We will never eat at Chick Fil A again
Well, she lays on the hardwood floor
Bought with tax money a few years ago

And my sweet wife snuggles
Under her fuzzy red throw
And watches a recording of the Oscars
Or Fashion Police, or something

The little boy is nearly a year past
His broken arm, and sleeps sweetly
And soundly and the dog arises
For a little guard duty and to check for cats

And Emmylou sings to me thru headphones
If I could be happier I don't know how
And now the dog we got for a broken arm
Curls under my old wingback and my feet

And falls into a peaceful sleep.

 

Dying a Little Every Day

When I was a little bitty baby ...like the song says
And my mama rocked me to sleep

Now in the dying light of a Thursday afternoon
The neighbor lady walks with effort
After putting the trash to the curb
Into the slowly dying house

The street cat we call Faulkner
But our neighbors call something else
Sits at my gate and grooms herself
And cries out for a bit of food

While I take the very good, very cheap, very quick
Chinese take out in for supper
And the thing is, I never see it coming
Never see it going, one day at a time

My babies grow up
And I just grow old
And notice how my old friends
Keep getting older or dying

I listen to the old music
I read the old books
I don't watch TV, but it happens
While I am on line

Dying a little every day
Is the way of all things
Until we are all gone and no one
Remembers we were ever here

Like the faded technocolor
Of a late Thursday afternoon

©Anthony Watkins

 

The Mist of a Horse Track

About thirty years ago
I had the good fortune
To be a Pepsi delivery driver
Which paid pretty good
And made me work hard
For my every dollar.

But the best part
Was the places I got to go
The fanciest Country Clubs
Waved me in without even a rolling stop
And I could park
On the street on Palm Beach

I filled vending machines
In spy sattelite tracking installaions
And at the work bench where
They built secret eltronic controls
For nuclear submarines
and Cia front organizations,

Not that any of these compared
To the training tracks
Of harness racers
Wheels and hooves picking up
Small pieces of damp dirt
And tossing them into the mist

Of a cool Florida winter morning
The sweet smell of hay and sweat
Both human and horse
Me, steady unloading soda,
Barn after barn, then to the kitchen
To Fill the stockroom and get a check.

And if I had time,
I would sit at the counter
Between drivers and trainers
And listen to the chatter
Half Spanish, half English
Drinking bitter burnt coffee

In that warm damp room
I felt I was part of a club
More exclusive than all of Palm Beach
Welcome in my Pepsi uniform
Barred without it.
I would love to share that world.

But alas, it is closed to me now
But in my mind I still see and smell
The mist of a horse track.

©Anthony Watkins

 

Rusted Iron and Steel

About a month ago
The fair came to town
Rides on flatbeds
Wagons full of funnel cakes
Cotton candy and corndogs
And sweaty men tapping posts
Into the ground

All the while cranes
Lifted plates and held pipe
To be secured in place
And soon shiny fantasies
Sprang from the earth
Like an alien invasion
Which, of course, it was.

Weeks passed, arm bands and tummy aches
Tired late night children
Crying to stay longer
Acrobats and clowns
Between acts,
Smoking a little this, a little that,
Wishing the crying babies would take flight.

Today, the cranes are back
The fair is due somewhere else
And the shiny dreams and plastic cups
Are packed away
And the rusty pipes and plates
Come down and are folded
On to waiting flatbeds

Wristbands fade in the mud
And children will soon forget
The fun had at great expense
Until next year
When the cranes put even rustier
Pieces back together
Soon covered by shiny painted dreams.

Now a giant empty parking lot
Keeps a month's worth of secrets
And there is no sign
Of rusted iron and steel.

© 2/03/11

 

Elm Street, Hattiesburg, Mississippi
 (and I never stopped, until this moment, to wonder who Hattie was)

Sweet strong black coffee
An old rambling city house
With a sunny upstairs guest room

And a gentle gas fireplace
Flickering as we played
Scrabble into the evening

A hiding place closet
In another upstairs bedroom
Forever tied in my mind to "Cecelia"

I got up to wash my face
And the world had changed
My aunt and uncle had gone

Moved to Indiana forever
But a summer on that tree shaded street
Has lasted longer than the move

Forty years, and I still dream
Of early morning strong hot sweet coffee
In the soft light of a white picket fence kitchen.

© Anthony Watkins

 

A Moment of Auburn Hair

I saw a woman today
Whose auburn hair
Was piled and pinned on her head
And when the sun struck it so
It reminded me of my friend
Now dead one year
So many years alive
But now a memory
Aren't we all?

So full of time
Little children dream
And then we're grown
And in a short, short time
We are old for a while
Then gone, to be missed
Bitterly, at first
But soon, only occasionally
When the sun shines a certain way.

When the light hits
A leaf glistening
I might think of another
Or a painting of a barn
I she my dead grandmother
Gone ten years now
Or this or that
Brings back someone

But only for a moment
And in that moment
We are born, live and die
I miss them all, and more
I will join them, soon enough
And be from this life
Forever gone, and nearly never were
I saw a woman today, now she's gone.

©1/25/11
Anthony Watkins

 

Celery in Everything

The weatherman says there is ice
Over most of Central and East Texas
The newsman says they closed the schools
They closed Austin, too

The weatherman says it's gonna be awhile
He says the ice covers everything
Don't expect it to get above freezing
Until it all melts

I think of that for a minute
And wonder how it will ever melt
And wonder how my friend is doing
I wonder if her husband cooked

In his poetically unpoetic way
A big pot of soup, and what
While I'm at it goes in
Beef Barley Vegetable Soup,

Does he cut little chunks of beef
On a board, and add grains of pounded barley
Maybe onions and celery, and carrots
And little peas and flat-sided beans

The weatherman moves on to the Midwest
But I remain wondering at East Texas
And my friend and her supper
And whether Ken cleaned the board

Between the beef and the veggies
And why I love celery in everything

©Anthony Watkins
2/25/03

 

On Certain Winter Mornings

 On certain winter mornings
In a small bathroom
In an old house
Built in the town
That arose to serve
The needs of Palm Beach

The light is more perfect
Than Monet’s garden
Or the Flemish painter’s window
And I stand there
And shave in the shower
With no mirror to see

And know I am luckier than most
As the light streams in soft and glittery
All at once
And bounces off the Florida Blue tile
With its shades of black and green
So subtle as to be unmatchable

And the soft, much scrubbed surface
Of the old white cast iron tub
Soaks up the excess light
Leaving only the crystallized
Light to dance
Off the showering water

On certain winter mornings
I am luckier than most.

© 1/08/11

 

Turning Fields

On a cold and rainy day
The fields are cut
And turned one time,
Weeds and mud
Mixed altogether

And it reminds me
So much of a hundred
Childhood days
The good and the bad

Going to Grandma's house
Though neither Grandma,
Nor the house remain
Except burned into my mind
Like yesterday

The rain makes my middle-aged bones
Ache like the old man I am becoming
And my heart aches
Like a bittersweet time machine.

©12/09/10

 

Daylight Moon

Full, yet faded
Against a pale blue late morning sky
Edged like lace
As out of place as I am

Standing here
In the parking lot of the art center
A redneck and his truck
Trying to be an artist
Like you, my sister, the moon
Trying to shine in the midday sun

 

The One I've Done

I love the sound of an airplane
Puttering across the sky
Not the monsters that roar
In and out of our nearby airport

But the fixed wheel single engine jobs
That look like a Volkswagen minibus
And sound like a overgrown lawnmower
Cutting a swath of blue from my sky

I am sure the pilot is doing one hundred and ten
But from here it looks so lazy
So clear day perfect meandering
West Palm to Sarasota for lunch

And who has ever stood close to a plane
Prop spinning at idle and not been
Sucked into an old black and white
"....you're getting on that plane with Victor"

And then, to the swooshing throb
Of blades in the air
"Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow"
Then back in the full color blue sky

And a million miles an hour
As a soul soars wings outstretched
Likely as good as sitting down with family
And saying "grace" to a god I don't believe in

Over cornbread dressing and turkey
One I've done and one I've not.

 

Between Six and Seven

Saturday morning early
Between taking the dog out
And catching up on my email
I hear my son

Daddy, can I get up and play?
I go to him, still snuggled in
In his darkened bedroom
I ask what he wants to do.

Can we build a restaurant?
He already has a store at Mimi and Papa’s
And a TV station here
For his cooking show
All cardboard and cellophane

We cut two smaller boxes
And make them into one
He takes a scrap
And makes a menu board
Ritz, Salad, Cornbread, Eggs

We make real cornbread
He cracks the egg, pours the meal
Stirs it all with a whisk
Then while it bakes, turns his restaurant
Into part of his camping expedition

An adventure that involves pillows
And a blanket and the living room couch
He tastes the cornbread and asks for chicken nuggets
And somewhere it hits me
There is so much to do

Between six and seven.

 

Sing For Me Another Round

Sweet Jesus, Mother Mary
Sing for me another round

About Fishermen and Publicans
Drinking at the bar
And Jesus walking on the water
Before they hung him on a cross
And made him a star
Bigger than the one
That shown in Bethlehem

Oh, Bethlehem, not Jerusalem
They tell me I was born there
Going down to Egypt
Hiding from the king
Going down to Egypt
To get a little corn

They say I am from Nazareth
And they sing of Jerusalem
Death, donkeys and palm fronds
But no matter where I go
I will never leave thee
My Bethlehem,
Oh little town of stars and stables

Sing me another round
As I stand at the Jordan
Knowing my crossing
Will be on dry land

©Anthony Watkins

(in memory of Dr. Lancaster, and all the other dead folks I love)

 

Back Door

This morning I saw a Guatemalan
Run over on his bicycle
By a sedan turning against the light
Get up without much more
Than a bent front wheel

And reminded me of the old man
Who suffered a gash on my windshield
A few weeks ago
I hope he is doing alright.
Then I remembered my bike

And the way our neighborhood
Had no backyard fences
And how no one ever came to the front door
We used crunchy gravel alleys
And rode our bikes right up

And dropped them on the back door step
And came right in
Asking my mama if I could play
Even if she said "no"
They were welcome to some cookies

Now the latchkey preschoolers
Come knock on the front door
Asking if my son can play
And usually he can't
Because I'm afraid he'll get run over

The backyards are fenced,
With padlocks on the gates
The back door, with chains and deadbolt
Only opened to take out the trash
And when I need to check on things

I miss my summers, for him,
The ones he'll never know
On long slow afternoons
When life happened in the backyards
And kitchens of neighborhood friends

We don't live at the back door, anymore
We don't live in the yard
And it makes me a little sad
And I wonder, will anyone remember
When we are all gone.

© May 30, 2010

 

Full Moon Over Texas
(for my great friend, Brenda Black White)

On some fine summer evening
When the moon is full
I'm going to Texas

But first I will have to find
A special car for the trip
I'll be looking where you look

For a nineteen seventy six
White Cadillac Eldorado
With a more than a little rust

And, of course the A/C
Won't work at all
But the electric windows will

I'll go to Goodwill
and stock up on cassettes
Of Janis Joplin and Lyle Lovett

And maybe find the Outlaw album
With Willie and Waylon, and Jessie
And the other guy I can't remember

I'll drive north and west
And maybe make Mobile in time
For breakfast at Waffle House

I wonder if they have a bunch
Of cheap hotels scattered down 98,
Or did Katrina get them all

If I find one, I'll crash
And sleep 'til supper,
Eat some crawfish and head out

Sailing west under that big moon
Surely I will see Texas the next morning
At least New Boston

Then I will spend a hot week
In the Panhandle, Austin and San Antone
Before hitting the border

That ain't near as bad as they say
I'll buy some Mariachi music
At a flea market

And cruise from Brownsville to El Paso
Seeing every angel in Texas
Some dead, some alive.

My wife is afraid of Texas
And there are plenty there
To cause her fear

But all I remember are the nice folk
Who buy strangers drinks
And pull to the shoulder to let you pass

Some fine summer evening
When the moon is full
I am going to Texas

(Note: Brenda Black White passed away in the past year)

© May 26, 2010

 

The Ways of Money

Fancy paper napkins, wall-to-wall carpet
And central air,
Play-Doh and Lego
And you can't play in there
Theses are the ways of money
I have known all my life

We didn't have any,
We didn't go to summer camp
But I knew if we did
These are the things
The ways of money
Were clear to me

Today I have so much
I had the carpet
And took it out
Paid extra for hardwood
Which is where I started

And central air has kept me cool
Since Nineteen-Seventy- Three
My son has Play-Doh,
And Legos, too
I don't really think about these
As the ways of money, anymore

But yesterday, I had to buy napkins,
And I thought about saving
A dollar or two
For we are nearly broke
Yet, I decided, if I can't have money
I'll settle for the ways of fancy paper napkins

©June 8, 2010

 

Three Days Worth of Groceries

Three days worth of groceries
And money coming tomorrow
I never thought I’d be here again

I've been richer
And I've been poorer
Its true what they say,
Richer is better

I'm glad the cupboard isn't empty
Glad money is on its way
But I hate the margin being so thin

Good times are a comin'
I can smell it like rain on the wind
Only wish the downpour
Would go ahead and start today!

©June 6, 2010

 

The End of Expectations

We have planned and painted
Shopped and designed your nursery
We have dreamed of all the things,
The smiles, the tears, the joy and weariness
You are sure to bring

From Valentines Day, when we first began
To expect you, through the heady days
Of baby showers, ultrasounds and naming
On to now, when you are so ready to come
To you room of soft light and Pooh borders

Your mother moves slowly and tires of your weight
But in five days we will end the expecting
And begin the love of suckling, diapers
Rocking and cooing, knowing full well
How tiny fingers can grasp one's heart

You, Christopher, are loved in advance
And have been for nearly a year,
With awe, joy, and a bit of sheer terror
We look forward to the end of expecting
And the beginning of the unexpected.

©Anthony Watkins
10/13/04

 

On Passing Into That Good Night

There are times when it seems welcome
Though I always said I would fight,
Like my grandmother, at eighty-six
Not ready, yet to go, still living every moment

But sometimes it seems like along and welcome sleep
To rest my weary self forever in the stillness
Of the last and lasting good night
No more worries, peace,at last

Then I think of all I love,the people
The places, the food, the land
And every cause I hold dear
But most of all my love

For my babies, my wife, friends and family
That I will never see soon enough,
And I rise to fight against the sun, the traffic and stress of work
Somedays I would welcome the good night

But not today, not yet, I do not lay my burdens down
I live another day, for you and for me.

©Anthony Watkins

 

Very First One

When I look into your sleeping face
And see what you have become
Since this day one year ago
How long and how short a year

A new born in my arms
I held you with love and hope and fear
Knowing you, like your brothers wouldgrow
Too fast, too soon be grown and gone

Wondering if I was too old
To be a good father, to even live
Long enough for you to have what you need
Sometimes I still wonder. But I know

I love you more every day, little boy of the lights
You are a blessing to this soon to be old man
A gift I am grateful for, so I say
Happy Birthday, Christopher, Happy very first one!

©Anthony Watkins

 

There Stands a Post in My Backyard

There stands a post in my backyard
I am sure some school age child
Is the cause of its being there

Once a shiny red post
With a bird feeder and a pinwheel
For a weather vane

Set just so, for best viewing
From her Mama's kitchen window
A proud and glowing child, I'm sure

Today, the pin wheel is missing
As is the glass from the feeder
In fact the post is barely visable

Some volunteer vine, half way
Between trumpet and poison ivy
Covers it, a green coat from base to top

What pieces of wood still show
Are faded, twisted and splintered
But I hate to remove some child's dream

So there stands a post in my backyard

©Anthony Watkins

 

Today the Paint is Fresh

Though the house is old,
Today the paint is fresh
And the caulking new
On the front gallery

The rails and post are from trees
Not long dead and felled
And while I can admire
The prettiness of the new

I am yearning for the day
When the wood is weathered
And the paint fades and peels
Then I will sit, foot upon the rail

One of the old men of my street
Watching the children pass by
Drinking my green tea and smiling
No longer the shiny new

But the old always there porch
And I the old always there man
Today the paint is fresh
And we don't even yet have the chair

©Anthony Watkins

 

I Would Not Be Graveyard Dirt

Who stirs up my dust and will not let me sleep?
The earth of my bones does not belong as a curse
Upon the steps of a stranger, leave me be

I caused enough trouble alive, let me stay gone
A memory, an ancient fading, to be recalled
At Christmas and on the day of my birth

By those who were cursed with me in life
Let the strangers alone with me
Let me remain, inert lost dirt in some graveyard

Who stirs my dust? May their curse be on them.

©Anthony Watkins
5/11/03

 

The Seven Pound Cup of Coffee

Well, maybe all the weight isn't coffee
The great black mug might be half,
Thick to hold the heat against the morning

I gently nurse and occasionally chug
The cooling extract of my favorite drug
And pound the keyboard in the dark

Of predawn, the hours of death,
But my coffee keeps me from dying today
Even though the doctors all agree

My seven pound cup of coffee will close my veins
And raise my pressure and one day the magic
Will turn and kill instead of wake

Until then, I strain my wrist and raise
The mighty mug to my lips for another shot

©Anthony Watkins
5/10/03

 

After the Door Had Opened

And I walked through like a man
Proud to be a pig farmer,
A truck driver, a jock with a rifle
And a poet stealing from the Bible

I don't know who went first, Hemingway or Twain?
Maybe Doctor King, preaching, marching and dying
It sure wasn't Wallace, the one I got to meet
It had to be Grandma from the last century

With a silver braid all down her back
And every word said to be heard, meant and understood
After the door had opened I picked up my pen
Wrote it all down for you to remember

Like it was something that happened to you
Just my notes, just me passing through

©Anthony Watkins 2003

 

How to See Alabama

We could eat at Chris'
The place where Bubba buys the dogs.
We could buy barbecue
From old black men at country stores
And pick our real tomatoes.

I could walk you through pecan orchards
That I worked in.
We could freeze our bottoms
Panning for gold in a shaded summer creek.
It might not be too bad that way

©Anthony Watkins

 

Glamour of Poverty

I sit on the ground
Three languages from home
And look into sincere Mayan eyes

The strange smell of burning
From trees I do not recognize
Mixes with the chilling mist

And drifts over native
And alien alike, smoking
The fried bread air between us.

Children, not hungry,
But with an appetite
Stare at the stranger that I am

From the glamour of poverty
Like a National Geographic cover
And the innocence I project.

Is this not just another
Day at the office in Belize?

©Anthony Watkins

 

No Seepage

Grease and water run together
In thin sheets on the parking lot
As I walk down Madison
For an early Krystal lunch.

My cousin overpays for a car wash
While I eat and contemplate
Her mother's grave and a stranger's
Mausoleum with moldy seepage

Growing and dripping onto the granite walls

After shopping for a toilet repair kit
We visit my dying aunt
Whose husband we buried yesterday

With the dead and the living attended
I remove the tank and replace the bolts
Set the new gasket and tighten

There is no seepage here.

©Anthony Watkins
5/17/03

 

The Water Carvers

Tiny light bony fingers
Etch scratches, gathering
I know not what

Dart away mostly in time
To be spared consumption
By the churning bass

Who carves baroque
Arches and chandeliers
As graceful as itself

But the bony fingered mosquito
Only succeeds in feeding
The greedy gliding duck

Who turns a furrowed molding
More perfect the carpenter's routing
Yet a minute passes

And the water lies flat again.

Anthony Watkins
©1/20/04

 

The Sweat of Horses

The flies rise up out of the dust
With a hum and a glisten of light
Black iridescent wings flash
And the horses swish their tails

As the clopping hooves echo mutedly
Against the thick green woods
The dust covers the wagon wheels
Pressing hard under the load

The team pulls against the drag of dust
Pulls an overloaded wagon and me,
I ride like one more fly as the cargo shifts
And the sweat of the horses gleam

Into a foam on the necks straining
Up a rise in the mid August heat
Flecks fall into the dust turning it brown
Under the steady well shod feet

I dream of the creek near by
And know the horses smell the water
I wonder of what they dream
While the sweat of horses falls into the dust.

Anthony Watkins
©12/20/03

 

What to Do When God is Gone

It wasn't the way he started parking
The old white Rambler American station wagon
Three blocks away on the other side of the bridge
That crossed the river that used to flood
Years before I was born

It wasn't the way he started cooking with butter
And calling me his father's name
And asking about the garden we haven't planted
Since I was a boy, worrying about the bugs on the squash and the tomatoes
It was the songs he hummed, wordlessly over and again
The songs he used to sing, songs he wrote for himself

I go over on Saturdays and wash the car to the pearly white,
So it still looks like it did
The day he drove it home in nineteen-sixty-four
But I wonder every time I have to go get it
And drive it across that old bridge

Should I hide the keys, should he still be alone?
When will I know, and how long before god is gone?
Will he reset all the presets on that old AM radio
Or cut out the little diamonds on the vinyl seats
How will I know, what will the sign be?

To tell me when its time to take god back home?
And who will I ask what to do after he is gone?

©Anthony Watkins

 

A SMALL GOD

"It is good to be
a minor god", she said,
"To command, with certainty,
the sun to rise
and again to set,
The spring to thaw,
The winter to freeze,
these I command."

"A small god must know
one's limits and powers,
I do not curse the wind,
only stones that can not move."

"It is good to be
A small god," she thought,
"No cathedrals for pigeons
nor bats to defile."

She stirred the pot and smiled.

©Anthony Watkins

 

A MOTHER'S DREAM

Obsidian, the mother,
nurses her child, the gift,
dreaming of freedom and home.
A GOD-CHILD MUST SURELY
NOT DIE IN CHAINS AS SHE WAS BORN.

The plantation is mild in winter,
but there is no cool place now,
sweat gathers on her nipple,
mixing with Gumbo's milky meal.
Black tiny eyes follow her fingers,
Cotton, snowy white, tears
at her fingers in contrast
to the sweet suckling.

Obsidian knows joy and sadness
like ice and fire in one stone.
Her gift is hope for a light
she will never see,
the light of freedom's train
taking her children home
TO MYTHICAL AFRICAN KINGDOMS.

©Anthony Watkins

 

Soft Shoe

He used to wear Hushpuppies,
Gray and brown,
Now its Birkenstocks, with socks
He's growing old as a modern man
Without pedigree or pedicure
He takes comfort as it comes.
or alternatively with easy rhymes:

He used to wear Hushpuppies
Brown and gray
Now its Birkenstocks, with socks
He's growing old a modern man,
The modern way
Without pedigree or pedicure
He takes comfort where he can.

Anthony Watkins
©2/04/04

 

French Poodle Women

I know these French Poodle women
Who only travel by train
And the silly perfume eating men
Who gladly follow them to Paris

Even if the train runs from Chicago
Even when the ocean turns to rain
Too many nights of cigarettes
And champagne have clouded the station

Ticket men and conductors agree
We need more lake front commuters
And less French Poodle women
Riding from Chicago to Champaign

© Anthony Watkins